Tuesday, September 21, 2010


Emily's pretty talented like that...:)

Friday, September 17, 2010

Waiting On the Lord

So I found myself struggling again last night. In my heart I said, "God, it's been 10 months........"
His answer?
Abraham waited 15 years for the promise of Isaac... Moses' wilderness experience lasted for 40 years... Joseph, was innocent, and yet he was not only sold into slavory, but got to sit in a dungeon for years... David had the promise that he would be king and yet he certainly wasn't seeing it happening as he spent years running for his very life... Or what about my Son Jesus as he worked in His father's carpenter shop? Daniel in Babylon? Elijah in hiding for 3 years?............

I mean just think of Moses with his transition from the life of a prince to a simple sheep herder way out in the middle of nowhere. Think of how traumatic that must have been! We're told that he was a successful millitary leader and a favorite with the king and the nation. He had been accustomed to receiving praise and flattery. His heart burned with the desire to deliver his people and he believed that he could do this and then - bam! - he finds himself out herding sheep.

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eales; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

The key word in this verse is obviously wait. It's the condition to the promise. From the way it puts it, if we don't wait on the Lord we will never have the strength of the Lord.
This subject is very near and dear to my heart right now. For a while it seemed as if everywhere I turned, everything I read, and even in the songs I heard, the word wait, as in waiting on the Lord, would jump out at me and catch my attention.
I was struggling with feeling extremely discontent. I felt like I was in a "holding pattern." I felt trapped. Then as this was drawn more and more to my attention I began to realize that sometimes God gives us a season in our lives - a season that often we would think of as "dry" - a season for waiting.

Wait:
-To stay in place in expectation of
-To look forward expectantly
-To be ready and available

Hebrew translation: Wait = Qavah
1) To bind together like a twisted rope
2) Look patiently
3) Hope, expect, look eagerly...

Actually the word qavah has both a literal and a fugurative meaning. The literal meaning is to bind together like a cord, while the figurative meaning is to wait, to hope, to expect.
What does a rope have to do with anything?
You make a rope or cord by twisting and weaving (binding) together thin strands or threads which make up the rope. The more strands that are used in making the rope, the more strength is has. There the word strength is again. Ecclesiastes 4:12 says, "...a cord of three strands is not quickly broken..."
A piece of string cannot take much weight because it does not have the strength because it is not made of as many strands. A piece of rope though can lift hundreds of pounds because it has many strenads in it. When a rope lifts or pulls a load it stretches a little while it is working. As it stretches, the individual strands are pulled closer together. While this "stress" is on the rope the individual strands work together to lift or pull the load. No one individual strand does all the work. If it did it would break. A ropes strength comes from all the strands working together.
The literal definition of qavah implies strength through numbers. As was already mentioned, the more strands in your rope, the greater its strength. Just as a rope's strength comes from being made of many strands, so our strength comes from being united with Christ. The "rope" of our lives gains strength by being twisted, or woven, or bound together with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
A rope's strength remains constant even when it is not being used. When a rope is not being used, what is it doing? Waiting. It waits for its owner to put it to use. When the rope is attached to the load, it draws its strength from all the strands and goes to work.

Some "strands" that are needed in our lives:
-Trust
The 2nd most frequently used word translated "wait" is yachal. The KJV sometimes translates yachal as trust (Is. 51:). When you completely trust someone you won't be afrid to wait for them. Neither will you be afraid to let them have your hopes, your dreams, and your future....
-Patience = the willingness to suppress restlessness when confronted with delay.
Psalms 40:1
Think of it like a desert. Patience is our journey for a season and hope is our water during that season. We must have both to arrive at our destination.

But most translations of the Bible choose to translate qavah figuratively instead of literally. To wait, to hope, to expect....

1. Wait

I regress to the examples I began with. Abraham, Moses, Joseph, David....
Going back again to Abraham waiting for the promise of Isaac: Genesis 12:7, 15:5,6
He believed. In chapter 16 Abram grew tired of waiting and followed his own understanding... In chapter 17 we see how at Abram now - at 99 years old! - is still waiting on God and God renews His promise to him. Think of how he must have felt... He still had to wait another year for the fulfillement of the promise. His time of waiting lasted 15 years!
What do you think was God's purpose in making Abraham and Sara wait rather than giving thm what they so desired (and even what was His will for them to have) right away?
Think about it! Almost all the great men in the Bible that come to my mind had a period of waiting in their lives. Even a time of miserable waiting... But it was exactly that that turned each and every one of them into the men that they became.

When a potter has completed his work he will set the piece of work on a shelf, waitng 'til he's certain it is dry. If he puts it in the kiln before that point it will crack or come apart due to the moisture inside.

Read Matthew 25:1-13 about the ten virgins. They were supposed to be waiting. They were expected to wait. With their lamps trimmed and burning, no less!
There's only 2 choices in the waiting process - to be faithful or unfaithful.

We tend to put a negative connotation to waiting. I mean who likes to wait? We live in a world where so much is instant.. We don't like waiting. In fact, often waiting is what we allow to add stress to our lives.

But waiting doesn't mean inactivity or putting our lives on hold. We need to actively carry out our responsibilities and serve in every way we can where God has currently placed us.
Think of a mountain climber who's trapped on a ledge in fog. His rescuers lower a rope to him - he can either lie there and wait for them to come down and tie it around him, or he could talk to them, follow their instructions, tie the rope to his harness and wait for the order to start climbing up.
Hebrews 4:11 "Let us labor together to enter into that rest..."

Lamentations 3:25 Waiting involves seekng the lord.
How do we seek Him?
-Time in Bible study
-Time in prayer
-Time in meditation - on who God is, what He wants to do in us and through us, as well as examining our motives, actions, values, and priorites...
Often waiting is what lease us to soul-searching.

Ecclesiastes 3 talks about seasons in our lives. There's a time to plow, a time to sow, and a time to reap, but they're never done at the same time... God's trying to grown a spiritual harvest in our lives, but that takes time and our cooperation in doing the right things at the right time.

Reasons to wait on the Lord:
1) Because of who God is and what He's able to do!
Jer 14:22
Ps. 62:1-2 and again on 5,6

2) Because of who we are and what we are not able to do!
Proverbs 14:12
Jeremiah 10:23

2. Hope
To wait we must have hope... Do you wait when there is no hope? What are we hoping for? Sometimes we choose the wrong things to hope for simply because they appear to be more present, more tangible, and more responsive to our needs and desires.

Hope - looking forward to a favorable end with expectation and confidence - I like that word confidence.:)

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jeremiah 29:11
Romans 8:25
Galations 5:5
Psalms 130:5
Hebrews 11:1

3. Expect

We can expect great things from God!
Psalms 34:8
Psalms 18:30 "...His way is perfect..."

There's a general promise: "...Those who wait...will renew their strength..."
But there's also 3 specific promises:
1) "...They shall mount up with wings as eagles..." You could think of this as the ability to rise above the problems and difficulties of life thorugh the strength that a relationship with God gives you.
2) "...They shall run, and not be weary..." The analogy to running becouse of the stress involved would look at the strength God gives us to handle particularly stressful situtions in life.
3) "... They shall walk, and not faint..." Walking portrays our everyday life.

"Hast though not known? Hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? There is no searaching of His understanding. He giveth power to the faint and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." Isaih 40:28-31

Note: This is way long, I know. That's basically a variation of a speech I had to do during our training program last month. I was delighted to finally put into words a little of what's been on my heart for some time. I should mention that not all of these are my words. Quite a few of the ideas and illustrations came from various authors who wrote on the subject on webpages and discussions that stemmed from that.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Our Kiddies!


Ning-ih enjoying his rice when he was just beginning to eat several months ago.:)


Since then we've made sure that he's had a bit of assistance...




Ning-ih, Josiah, SawGwihLee, JooJoo, MeMeWa, MooWaWa.


Worship at the school.

"For I know the plans that I have for you..."

...says the Lord.

It's always been important to me to have plans for my future. In fact, I think I nearly always have, and although through the years my plans altered slightly from when as a little maybe 5-year-old I unswayingly decided I would be a nurse to when I was 12 and equally adamant that my future lay in the cockpit of a plane as a bush pilot in Alaska (incidentally, a desire that has never completely diminished...), it was a great comfort to me to be so certain of what I wanted to do and where I was headed. I was completely passionate about what I wanted to do! Never for a moment did I doubt that I would accomplish my dreams! They were all good plans, right?
Let's just say that Thailand did not fit in with my plans. When my family decided that this was where we were going and were determined that we would go together, saying I was dismayed would be an understatement! But still I only viewed it as simply a temporary delay.
Soon it became apparent though that my life was not going to just fall into place and allow me to follow through with my well-layed plans the way I'd hoped.
Mercifully, I'll shorten all the ins and outs and ups and downs of the story to simply saying that God had a course in surrender in store for me... It was not an overnight process.
I realized that this was the first time in my life that I didn't "know" where I was going. And I didn't like it. At all. I felt as though I'd lost my purpose.
I had to come to the point where I could understand that God has a perfect plan for my life and that I would never experience it or be anything like the person He made me to be 'til I was willing to trade my plan for His own.
More recently, I was listening to someone speak and in the context of surrender the question was asked, "Is there anything in your life that you can't imagine living without?" I found it deeply disturbing to realize that I instantly knew that there was something in my life that I did feel that way about and and even more disturbing to realize that I knew what it was. I may have decided to wait on God for the right timing when He would open the doors so that I could fulfill my plans, but I still hadn't completely surrendered my plans to Him, accepting that they may not be His. I couldn't picture, or was even sure that I wanted a life without them fitting into it in some shape or size... It took me hours of struggling and soul searching before I was able to view it from an eternal perspective and count the cost, finally giving it completely to God. What a relief to simply let it rest in God's hands!
Shortly after that decision I felt deeply impressed to go ahead and take an online EMT-B to Paramedic course, which I can start over here, completing the vast majority of it online on my own time before traveling to Texas towards the end of the course for several weeks of hands-on practice, testing, and clinical hours.
I find myself thirsting for knowledge... There's so much I don't know and so much I want to know. But, while I have nothing against education in a campus college setting, I don't believe that it's God's plan for me right now to put the rest of my life on hold in order to go spend the next several years of my life in some city somewhere simply for the sake of traditional education.
This way I can continue to serve where God has placed me at the same time as continuing my education and opening up the door for possibilities for greater service in the future.
I don't think I've ever been more certain of having heard God speak to me! Since that day there's been times when I've struggled, feeling as if there's no way that it can happen and not wanting to get my hopes up only to have them dashed... but I always come back to the fact that I serve a God that opens doors that no one can shut and shuts doors that no one can open! I trust that He will provide the funds...
My long-term plans are no more. I still have strong interests and I still have hopes and dreams that I'm looking forward to seeing how God will use... But If you were to ask me what I'll be doing three months from now I'd have to tell you that I'm not certain what I'll be doing three days from now. All I know is that I'm where God's placed me at this moment in time and that this is the next step in my life!

"...Behold, I have set before you an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and thou hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name." Revelation 3:8

Monday, September 13, 2010

Since I've been mentioning learning to read and write in Thai I thought I'd just put on a few pics of what it actually looks like for anyone who might be interested.


The Thai alphabet - that's not including vowels!


That would be numbers 1-9.
Talk about squiggly lines, curly-cues, and miniature donut holes...


There's some of it a little more put together.


By contrast, this is Karen. Oh, my beloved Karen!:) I wish Thai would take a few lessons you!

It's an awesome challenge and, although it's often easy to get discouraged about it, I love it! The effort it takes is definitely worth it! If you could just see my heart glow anytime I pass a road-sign and am actually able to make out the sounds!:)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

"...As having nothing

...and yet possessing all things."

In otherwords: you may be sitting covered with a recurring and miserable case of hives (stress? allergies?), you may be so completely exhausted that you have to order your body to move, you may not have more than $3 dollars to your name, or at least have enough for non-necessities such as shampoo (not my current condition, PTL!)...
But it's an amazing feeling to realize that you have what really matters most in life! And once you've experienced it it's something you wouldn't trade for the world! How is it that often it takes us "nothingness" to discover what really does matter and that it dosen't take everything we think we need to have it?

In having what really matters I'm specifically speaking of God and having a relationship with Him, but this is a part of a list I made more recently on a more miserable day and have added to as a way to remind myself of Him and just a part of some of the others things I do have and am thankful for (I'm sure some of these you won't understand unless you know me well):
* The love of God!
* Family that cares enough to be there
* Others who I think of as family (you know who you are)
* Children in my life...
* Although "poor", certainly not destitute
* Music
* Choices
* MANGOES
* Inspiration
* Determination
* Diversity
* The word "no"
* The Source of peace in the midst of chaos
* Writing as an outlet
* A desire for more
* People who smile when things go wrong
* Forever and always a child of God
* Today
* That I cannot see the future
* That I can learn from the past
* Purpose
* Adventure
* Fellow adventurers
* An unconventional life
* People who hug
* A growing appreciation for the Bible
* Love for the unlovable
* Toothbrushes
* Mountains
* Wilderness
* Guitars
* Non-Chevy vehicles:)
* FB
* Things not always going my way
* Colors: such as green and sunset orange
* Healing and beauty that can come from ashes
* The occasional glimpses of enduring love
* That life isn't always fair
* Undeserved grace

"...As having nothing, and yet possessing all things." 2 Corinthians 6:10